Somewhere in the Middle of Vanilla and Chocolate

Walk into a room
All eyes on me
At least that’s how it feels
I’m chocolate in a sea of vanilla

It’s nothing new
That’s how I grew up
But it wasn’t always this easy

You see, as a kid
I was constantly reminded of my flavor
I just figured it was something to savor
But I didn’t really fit in
With all of my vanilla friends
And I could only see one difference therein

I’m chocolate in a sea of vanilla

One day Ms. Brown
Stood me in front of the mirror
“What do you see?”
“This chocolate looks ugly on me!”

“Look again my child
There is so much more
Your chocolate is beauty and strength
Nothing you should abhor.”

From that day forward
My confidence arose
“My goodness I’m sexy!
I’m sure everyone knows.”

I’m chocolate in a sea of vanilla

As I grew up more chocolate came around
“This is great!
I don’t feel left out
Finally someone that looks like me
That’s actually not my family.”
As usual, things weren’t that easy

I’m vanilla in a sea of chocolate

“You’re not hood
You talk too vanilla
Your flavor is too chocolate”
Why all of this guerilla
Warfare on my character?

I’m vanilla in a sea of chocolate

I quickly learned
To be confident in myself
No more giving other’s thoughts life
“Well, Who are you then?”
Let me tell you my friend

I’m uniquely me
Carlton Banks
With the Polo Tee
Some plaid shorts
And deck shoes

No Tom Jones
Just hip-slappin Gospel
Intelligent
Creative
Musician

Man, I could keep going
There’s so much to say
I guess you’ll have to
Get to know me

Grey suit on
Pink hanky in the pocket

I’m somewhere in the middle of vanilla and chocolate

  • Jarrod  Brown © 2015
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24 Comments Add yours

  1. Melody says:

    Jarrod, I can see your life vividly through your words! Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

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  2. Reblogged this on A Good Blog is Hard to Find and commented:
    I like this write on self-reflection and more importantly self-acceptance. It is a struggle I had through childhood and I can relate a lot to these words. Well done on the word strings too, I really felt like I was following your life through your thoughts. -OM
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    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      Thanks for the reblog! I’m glad you can relate. Self-acceptance can be rough. Looking forward to your next post!!

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      1. Having to “accept yourself” is rough and not the way it should be. For those of us that walk paths less followed, we learn this at a young age. 🙂

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  3. Eddie Gilliam says:

    I can relate to the point of view. as a young man who grew up in the south ,I got it. I also experience this in the military.

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  4. shielders anonymous says:

    Beautiful poem!

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  5. Nicole McGraw says:

    One of my favs so far:) I’m glad you don’t lack confidence anymore…it’s wears well with all your personality!:) Until your next blog, Carlton.

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    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      Thanks lol! I’m glad you liked it..

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  6. Your flavor analogy is extremely effective and reflective. Self-acceptance can take a while, not only because of color, but often of gender or personality traits that inhibit confidence. Well done!

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    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      Thank you! I hope the words and excerpts from my life can give someone strength. We’ve all gone through something.

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  7. Laura says:

    Reblogged this on Riddle from the Middle. What wonderful work!

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    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      Thank you so much!! I truly appreciate it. I was kinda down about my latest pieces. So this is a definite pick-me-up!

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  8. That is one hell of a classy and relevant rig, congrats indeed
    The ‘Fresh Prince’ ref, nice!

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    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      Thank you! That’s my life in a nutshell. I was waiting on someone to catch the Fresh Prince reference.

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  9. Andre B. says:

    I agree with the above my brother, this piece is excellent and your best yet!

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  10. Annie says:

    It is now one of my favourite pieces, too! 😀

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      Awesome! I’m glad you like it 🙂

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    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      I’m glad you like it. Thanks for reading 🙂

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