Where I Want to Be

“I’m learning every day to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me”

  • Tracy Ellis Ross

I love that quote because it’s so incredibly fitting. I look around, and I haven’t reached my goals yet. I want to become a clinical psychologist. I’m in a bind though.

I’m well past the age of halting life for college. That time has come and gone, and now bills are knocking at my door with monthly consistency. I had the chance to move to Los Angeles for a Clinical Psychology PsyD (Doctorate of Psychology) program. Can we say appealing? Beaches, good food, and sunshine in my window. Yes please!! That definitely beats my current situation. Alas, I found out the program was not accredited through the American Psychological Association (APA). Attending a program without that accreditation is the equivalent of buying a surf board for a snow storm. So, I had to turn it down.

Most schools I apply for are a five-year commitment. That’ll push me closer to…….. 40 (insert dramatic music)!! Side Note: Enjoy your age! I heard way too many women crying about turning 30. I’d always say “It’s better than the alternative.” Smh… Be Thankful!

Back to it. That’s a long commitment. I’m definitely willing to do it. However, I realize life isn’t like when I was 20. I was carefree (not really, but go with me on this), going to school, and BROKE! Whew!! Pancakes for breakfast, lunch, and dinner because I couldn’t afford groceries is not my ideal situation. Now, I’m an adult.I have to take care of business. I can’t rely on my parents to bail me out. After all, I’m marching towards……… 40 (insert dramatic music)!!

This whole adult thing isn’t the pits, but it does make you think. As it sits, I have a good job with an excellent supervisor (another post for another day). I’m working with kids which is why I want my clinical psych degree. I play the organ for my church. I lift weights. I’m able to support myself which was a fear of mine after moving home from college. Maybe this life thing isn’t too bad, eh? I may not be where I want to be, but I’m going and enjoying the trip along the way. Thank God for it!

5 Comments Add yours

  1. Annie says:

    Great quote! A reminder to think about that space as something inspiring.

    I nominated you for One Lovely Blog Award, if you’re up for it 🙂 The link is here:

    Have a great weekend!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Jarrod Brown says:

      Omgoodness!!! Thank you so much!

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Annie says:

        You’re welcome 🙂


  2. shielders anonymous says:

    Interesting quote! It’s amazing how the plans we have for our lives change or unfold as we get older. At the age of 22, I apparently had the rest of my life all mapped out and didn’t realize it until I was in a job interview, and the manager asked me where I saw myself in five years and ten years. While answering her question I realized that I was hearing those words the same time she was. I had it organized in my mind but never said it out loud or wrote it down so it didn’t become real to me until that moment. I told her in five years I wanted to complete my Bachelor’s degree, be married with one of two kids, working and starting to consider graduate school. In ten years I wanted to be done with my master’s degree, own a private lab, have baby #2 and live ‘happily ever after’ (corny I know, but it was my general sentiment at the time). Well six years later I’m still working on the first of my five year goals. What can I say, life happened and I am now grateful that it did. My experiences in these last six years have changed my world view tremendously and I thank God that I was able to use them to become a mature, focused young woman. While my goals have not changed, the timeline obviously has and I’m okay with that. I had to learn that I was not completely ready for what I wanted and so I had to go through a process to get to where my heart desired to be. Yes I felt like a disappointment at times, but the speed at which you go somewhere matters less than your ability to maneuver the obstacles along the way.


  3. Eddie Gilliam says:

    Excellent post. In order to get something you never had, you have to do something we have to change our mind set


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