“I’m learning every day to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me”
Tracy Ellis Ross
I love that quote because it’s so incredibly fitting. I look around, and I haven’t reached my goals yet. I want to become a clinical psychologist. I’m in a bind though.
I’m well past the age of halting life for college. That time has come and gone, and now bills are knocking at my door with monthly consistency. I had the chance to move to Los Angeles for a Clinical Psychology PsyD (Doctorate of Psychology) program. Can we say appealing? Beaches, good food, and sunshine in my window. Yes please!! That definitely beats my current situation. Alas, I found out the program was not accredited through the American Psychological Association (APA). Attending a program without that accreditation is the equivalent of buying a surf board for a snow storm. So, I had to turn it down.
Most schools I apply for are a five-year commitment. That’ll push me closer to…….. 40 (insert dramatic music)!! Side Note: Enjoy your age! I heard way too many women crying about turning 30. I’d always say “It’s better than the alternative.” Smh… Be Thankful!
Back to it. That’s a long commitment. I’m definitely willing to do it. However, I realize life isn’t like when I was 20. I was carefree (not really, but go with me on this), going to school, and BROKE! Whew!! Pancakes for breakfast, lunch, and dinner because I couldn’t afford groceries is not my ideal situation. Now, I’m an adult.I have to take care of business. I can’t rely on my parents to bail me out. After all, I’m marching towards……… 40 (insert dramatic music)!!
This whole adult thing isn’t the pits, but it does make you think. As it sits, I have a good job with an excellent supervisor (another post for another day). I’m working with kids which is why I want my clinical psych degree. I play the organ for my church. I lift weights. I’m able to support myself which was a fear of mine after moving home from college. Maybe this life thing isn’t too bad, eh? I may not be where I want to be, but I’m going and enjoying the trip along the way. Thank God for it!