I Just Want….

I’m lying in a hotel bed with the urge to write. Tiredness has wrapped its hands around my body. Sleepiness is caressing my eyelids. It has been a long day. However, I have to fulfill this yearning to write. I have to get my creative juices flowing. I have to write the next great piece! I have to **yawns** get through this piece so I can go to sleep.

I have to….

Once again, a packed day has left me with minimal time to write (or sleep for that matter). Life has been so busy as of late. I really haven’t had time to sit down and give my blog the attention it needs. I have plenty to write about, but I don’t have time to put my thoughts down.

Or, should I say, I’m not making time to do it.

By the time I think about writing, it’s close to ten and I’m on the road to sleepville. The day has effectively worn me out. So much so that I can’t wrap my head around the latest nonsense going on in the country. Or, I have another task that needs to get done. Thus, I push a post back to the next day. And the next. And the next.

And the next….

Before I know it, my work week ends and I’ve already made plans for the entire weekend (none of which include writing). Saturday comes and I hit the ground running. Gym. Mall. Movies. Out to eat. Whatever other planned activity. Still, there’s no writing. Sundays are usually busy because I have church all day. By the time the church day ends, Monday is police knocking on my door to arrest and detain me in the work week clink.

Lately, I’ve found myself thinking, “If I had more time….”, but the sad fact is I would fill the extra time with something to occupy it leaving the desire to write burning in my chest. Whatever activity would be fun, but I would also be running around. On the go. Constantly running. I just need time. And quiet.

I need quiet.

I find myself craving it. No screens. No music. No podcasts. No phone. No noise. No distractions. Just me and God filtering my thoughts. Ideas I can clearly express from a fresh mind. Words that come with sound reasoning and a fresh perspective. If only I had some quiet time like I do now.

Of all the things I want in life, right now I just want to write.

[Image Credit Flickr via Izabela Wasilewska]